Goodbye 2009 and Welcome 2010!

WOW JASMINE!give a pat on your back and give around of applause to yourself for making till the end.think about it,i have come a long way.i guess this year is the most challenging year.

From the beginning of the year,i just got transferred to woodlands secondary.Life was upside down for me at that point of time.you know new surroundings,new teacher,new friends.everything are so new to me.it wasn't easy for me to survive in new surroundings although you might think I'm such an extrovert person.However,i still make it.praise the Lord.2009 is a whole new phase for me,an extraordinary chapter of my life.

amazingly,one of my classmates who is also a Christian and also a jb-ian,she brought me to church.she was the person who led me to church.i thank God for all these.i have been hoping that one day,i have the chance to attend church service every week.And God answered my prayer!

Now,2009 is coming to an end.2010 will be a whole new chapter.ops,wait a minute,whole new chapter or not,depend on you yourself.you are the decider.decision is made by yourself.whether you want 2010 to be an exciting and abundant year,it depends on you,your choice.or..you want it to be the same as 2009.same scenario,same routine,no breakthrough at all.

I challenge myself.2010, i want it to be an exciting and abundant year,totally different phase,a breakthrough.i hope and pray that i will be able to make it.

Once again,i have to thank God for everything He had done for me in 2009.His planning for me during 2009.I have changed a lot coming to know God.i have also learned a lot for Him and people around me.overall,2009 is a year which i draw closer to God.

can't wait for 2010.a whole new year ahead!let 2009 regrets and hatred be forgotten,don't look back.People who look backward,will never know the abundant life that lays ahead.LOOK FORWARD!

exploration

One day,when you feel that the world evolves around you,what will you do? Will you escape from reality?or...you will move on with bravery? It took me awhile to think about it,yet no decision is made.

After reading a random blog,i have different views with my current life.It probes me many questions,all about present and future.The most inevitable quesiton because everything go with the flow.All I can say now is explore your-self and your talent.explore,know more about yourself.Not to forget,explore the kingdom of God,the path that leads you to eternal life,abundant life.

Quote:today is a present,that's why it's called present.

2 days in singapore~

oh gosh!something went wrong with the network and my post is gone by the wind!

at last,i met up with the tongs once again.3 of us went had a great time at orchard.walking up and down of ion,and wow the longest escalotor i have ever seen.it's about 4 storey high,cool?!As a passer-by,we couldn't miss the fun of camwhoring when the place was decorated with x'mas stuff and also chandeliers!haha:):)

the models of the day(LOL):



no choice i had to travel to singapore again.haha,singapore is like my second home now.i went to buy school books and assessment and etc.haiz,my future life lays ahead :(

craps~oh dont mind me -,-

look guys,,i'm back once again..alright please dont blame me for nt blogging to recently.i just dont have the mood but not now:):):) i have a lot of things to write about,but am lazy to type a whole chunk of words..so let;s make it short and sweet.

(it's crap)
alright,i have been helping out my friend doing blogskin although i'm not a pro..at least i help,,oh whatever...too much free time recently.sometime i just dont know how to use up this time..holiday is boring..but school is boiring too.sound ironic huh?teehee!

have something trap in mind for the past few days..oh,all thank to that 'memorable' night..now,i'm kindda of stuck in the centre.have no idea what to do..oh God i just pray that it wont the event wont rewind rewind and replay again.i dont want all these to replay in my life again.not now at least..i have no time for all these craps,however i still plunge into it..(i know it's my fault-,-)..hey,,but i working out a solution now..so i'm good:)at least i'm trying right,instead of the non-stop plunging.

aha,,i'm in a good mood,in a good mood,in a good mood..oh shut up!i'm cant wait for 2nd dec..hey tongs,i'm coming!hope that the tongs family will attend this very important day..(like real...but it's truth horhx)

let go~

i have learned to let go after i knew the answer.i'm quite satisfy with my action and i never regretted confessing.the 2 things i learned.first, if you want to know the answer,ask him/her personally.second,in life we have to learn how to let go although it is not easy.no point clinging to it tightly if it isn't yours as the result will remain the same.

at first,it wasn't at all easy for me.i felt dejected,sunken heart...so many questions popped in my brain..so many pictures appeared in my mind..the first thing i thought of when i stretched myself to open my eye is him..at any interval,he will just pop out in my mind..

however,as days go by,i'm more used to this life now and i feel great too without him being a blockage in my life.i'm doing fine now.in fact,life seems better without him.now,i have goal,an aim..in the past,when i was still so obsessed with him..i don't know what's my goal,my aim..even if i have one,i'm sure it will be him..now,life is good:d.there's a goal for me to achieve..there's an aim for me to reach for..

yoohoo,goal and aim wait for me!i will be chasing after you guys! =D

woah

yoohoo,,school holiday in the air!since today is the last day,i met up with kaiting and liting at cck.we went for lunch..the foods there were superb!oh not to mention,they serve in big quantity -.- before meeting them up,we class 2A actually went to visit a children's home named kids united home.we went to drop off our hamper and intend to interact with the kids.unfortunately,the kids were still in school yet,so we didn't manage to play with them..but we managed to play with 3-4 kids.i don't have much thoughts after this visit.the only thing i'm glad is at last we have come to the end of CIP..being a cip leader ain't an easy job.been through ups and downs.also,i learned that being a good and successful leader is not easy.

hmm,there's this random question that flash through my brain.i was thinking does anyone come across a time when you only hope to stick around being the follower instead of the leader.sometime,i feel that.is not because i don't enjoy being a leader.i do in fact.but sometime,i just hope to take a break,give other people a chance and so on.a person can't be something always..

emphasizing on nature!

Look at the bright side of life!!!! I have decided! although i've no decision yet,derh!that's sound ridiculous.how should i start?alright,remember i was in a dilemma,confusion,no decision,can't forseen..(smth lyk that)

there was this idea that popped out in my head suddenly.i will not think about this particular thing anymore.be it whatever he thinks,i'll no longer care..in other word,let nature takes its course.does anyone have any idea how frustrating it is when something like a tumor stucks in your head and you just can't figure it out why is this happening to you.it felt exactly this way when i'm clueless,when i don't get what he is thinkingwhen decision is not made!

nature takes its course seems to be one of the alternate solutions since i will never figure out a decision.so,no point thinking when you can't think straight.no point killing your own brain cells when no matter how hard you think,there won't seem to be an answer.

i shared with one of my friends today.her reaction was overwhelming.and she thought that it was a good beginning.therefore she asked me to be patient.

anyway, i shall let nature takes its course althought it is not an easy task.definitely,i will face all kinds of difficulty.definitely,it's not easy to overcome.However,i will perservere!!

it can be a painful thing

hmm,should i go on with this??sometimes i like things are now.sometimes,i want to know what you're thinking..do you understand how it felt like.for a while,i thought i understand you.after a blink of eyes,you're so near to me but yet consider far..have you ever thought of it?i mean,i have hinted,i have started the 1st step.can't you tell?it's unless you're noob enough or else even a dumb ass can tell.i really can't tell what you're thinking..

you do all kinds of actions...and what do all these actions mean?are you thinking what I'm thinking..or you're simply fooling around..

what i want is just a heart that i can understand..i don't request much...just show me what yup feel and think..i don't want to drift away because of trivial things..i don't want to waste time..tell me something..or else,i can never make a decision..I'm simply afraid that my decision will cause me infinite pain.but,i can't drag this for long.the longer i drag,the more hurting it is.do you understand?

tell me what should i do?

upside down

hmm,,life isn't as good as other people thought,yeah?i was'nt performing to my best for the past weeks.what am i thinking??i just wanna be a carefree child,a happy child with no burden.but why?the more i yearn for this,the more i felt strangle upon something?what is this all about?

why?is this what u have planned?is this what u want?is that all?u were the one who drag me along.now i'm so used to u that i can't bear to leave..but..waht about u?what are u thinking?are thinking the same as me?if yes,good for me..if no,what are u up to?turning my life upside down...

feelings

I love you,but i hate you

hmm...

I am sad...truely sad

maybe,this is a wrong step.
maybe,i shouldn't have believed it.
maybe,it's all a lie.
maybe,i have been blinded all along.
maybe,i deserve it.
maybe,YOU are the one who cause all these!!!

it's worthwhile!

people!I'm going to Singapore flyer on Thursday.jealous??haha,i advice students to go during this school holiday.there's student rate during school holiday and it only cost us students $10.doesn't it worth going?C'mon,it's damn freaking cheap.it cost at about $30++ during normal days.so students get ready and move your butt to the Singapore flyer!!ops,sad to say that Friday is the last day.so chiong ar!!!

some piece of thoughts..

sometime,do u feel pathetic when your friends have the chance to travel? would u feel the pinch?alright,i will be the first one to confess, i guess.u can call me 'suaku' or whatever(i don't care anyway),i have not board a flight before!and in my whole 15 years!sound pathetic right?some young kid about 4,5 years old,already have the chance to travel around.

BUT.....

not to worry!!i have recommendation,and it's a good piece man!people always travel outside the country.think about it,what's the point? you can travel in your own country:)i believe there's beaches and scenic places that would be so worthwhile to visit once a life time.i think it woiuld be the best to know your own country well first before your travel around the globe.sounds right?

OR.....

if you really think that there's nothing around your country.how about trying a nearby country??for example,i live in malaysia.singapore is like my neighbour.i visit there frequently,in a sense too frequently.you have the singapore flyer,the on building casinos,the escape theme park,the beach etc etc..you have so many around you.what to worry?if you don't have the $$ to travel to other countries,try looking for goodies in your country.i believe the price is a ton cheaper!

recap

the wonderful moment i had during the nacli camp.it is actually a 3 days 2 nights camp.

1st day:
had to wake up early in the morning.during the morning,i ws fulled of excitement.when we reached the camp site,another school had reached there.but then northbrooks secondary school students had not arrived.we waited for them for at least an hour.phew,so we were a little bit unhappy about it.basically,we didn't do much during the first day.hmm,maybe we more time to warm up.but when talking about the night,it was fun!while watching the american next top model outside of our bunk which is the lounge,my friend and i were eating cup noodle.we were supposed to lights off at 11.30pm.2 mischivious girls just can't abide the rules.both of us waited for the person to come,then only we went to our bunk unwillingly.anyway,it's just a small matter since our bunk is the first bunk and it's so near to the lounge,muhahaha.

2nd day:
everybody was more enthu during the second day.i think it's because the activities organized were more fun.we had concert night too.my friend and i were the emcess of the night.it was so so scary as it was my first time,you know.i felt more stable after going up the stage la.during the night,a group of friends sat around the lounge and chit-chat.i think it was quite memorable.we played games too.

3rd morning:
we were so crazy during the second night till we even decided to meet up at the lounge at 6am.that's how crazy we are.last day there,must be more enthu ma.i think i was too enthu till i caught minor fever.but it recovered in no time.actually activity of the day was to go to bukit merah(i think is bukit merah).but a torrential rain disperse our hope of going there.so then,the facilitator gave us dominos to play.during the process,we failed upteen time.so many time,countless time.we even get so pissed off with the domino.but the result was sweet.when we push down the domino from the starting point,our heart leap.we were afraid that the dominos were not well connected.luckily,all the dominos were connected.we were so so so happy.it's happier than getting straight As for exam.that's how i can describe.

we headed back home at about 5pm.that was the time to say farewell,i guess. :(

my time,my life..

can't you see it?isn't it obvious enough?do i need to spell it all out for you?
it just doesn't make sense.I'm waiting like a dumb ass.while,you're having your all day fun huh.I'm okay with hoolaing.but please,can you spare a thought for other people?can't you put yourself in other's people shoes?i don't need an essay nor an impress note.what i need is just a reply.A REPLY!a damn freaking reply won't cost you 1 hour of sleep though.seriously,don't test my patient.once it has boiled,I'm telling you everything will just explode!