it can be a painful thing

hmm,should i go on with this??sometimes i like things are now.sometimes,i want to know what you're thinking..do you understand how it felt like.for a while,i thought i understand you.after a blink of eyes,you're so near to me but yet consider far..have you ever thought of it?i mean,i have hinted,i have started the 1st step.can't you tell?it's unless you're noob enough or else even a dumb ass can tell.i really can't tell what you're thinking..

you do all kinds of actions...and what do all these actions mean?are you thinking what I'm thinking..or you're simply fooling around..

what i want is just a heart that i can understand..i don't request much...just show me what yup feel and think..i don't want to drift away because of trivial things..i don't want to waste time..tell me something..or else,i can never make a decision..I'm simply afraid that my decision will cause me infinite pain.but,i can't drag this for long.the longer i drag,the more hurting it is.do you understand?

tell me what should i do?