emphasizing on nature!

Look at the bright side of life!!!! I have decided! although i've no decision yet,derh!that's sound ridiculous.how should i start?alright,remember i was in a dilemma,confusion,no decision,can't forseen..(smth lyk that)

there was this idea that popped out in my head suddenly.i will not think about this particular thing anymore.be it whatever he thinks,i'll no longer care..in other word,let nature takes its course.does anyone have any idea how frustrating it is when something like a tumor stucks in your head and you just can't figure it out why is this happening to you.it felt exactly this way when i'm clueless,when i don't get what he is thinkingwhen decision is not made!

nature takes its course seems to be one of the alternate solutions since i will never figure out a decision.so,no point thinking when you can't think straight.no point killing your own brain cells when no matter how hard you think,there won't seem to be an answer.

i shared with one of my friends today.her reaction was overwhelming.and she thought that it was a good beginning.therefore she asked me to be patient.

anyway, i shall let nature takes its course althought it is not an easy task.definitely,i will face all kinds of difficulty.definitely,it's not easy to overcome.However,i will perservere!!

it can be a painful thing

hmm,should i go on with this??sometimes i like things are now.sometimes,i want to know what you're thinking..do you understand how it felt like.for a while,i thought i understand you.after a blink of eyes,you're so near to me but yet consider far..have you ever thought of it?i mean,i have hinted,i have started the 1st step.can't you tell?it's unless you're noob enough or else even a dumb ass can tell.i really can't tell what you're thinking..

you do all kinds of actions...and what do all these actions mean?are you thinking what I'm thinking..or you're simply fooling around..

what i want is just a heart that i can understand..i don't request much...just show me what yup feel and think..i don't want to drift away because of trivial things..i don't want to waste time..tell me something..or else,i can never make a decision..I'm simply afraid that my decision will cause me infinite pain.but,i can't drag this for long.the longer i drag,the more hurting it is.do you understand?

tell me what should i do?

upside down

hmm,,life isn't as good as other people thought,yeah?i was'nt performing to my best for the past weeks.what am i thinking??i just wanna be a carefree child,a happy child with no burden.but why?the more i yearn for this,the more i felt strangle upon something?what is this all about?

why?is this what u have planned?is this what u want?is that all?u were the one who drag me along.now i'm so used to u that i can't bear to leave..but..waht about u?what are u thinking?are thinking the same as me?if yes,good for me..if no,what are u up to?turning my life upside down...